It’s always just there…
And even though I have moved on the hurt that you made me feel still causes dreams I wish I could forget.
Every new person who comes into my life I question, sometimes I even get a little overbearing because I never want to feel that pain again. The pain of feeling my heart being ripped from my chest by the person I loved more than myself…
You cheating on me has caused me to deal with things I never thought I would. Especially, after finding out I was with someone who took advantage of me.
You have caused me to question every boy I have a serious relationship with because you have made me so insecure, and I really hate saying that. I hate knowing you’ve impacted me that much… And knowing you still have that control over my heart is the worst thing in the world.
I know I’m a strong woman and I know I deserved better than you, but I loved you.
It just really hurts knowing that you tearing my heart into pieces was so easy and it might always affect my future relationships.
I don’t want to blame the man of my dreams for the heartache you have given me, but I have come to terms with it.
I have learned how to deal with things that trigger me and the bad dreams that come with being cheated on by someone you thought was your whole world.
I have come to terms knowing that if it ever happens again I walk away immediately. No matter how much I love them.