When you find out the person you love more than anything, broke your trust, spent time with someone else, and broke your heart, you die inside.
You literally feel your heart pull apart. It’s a physical and mental pain that never gets easier. And it tears at more than just your heart but your soul.
You look at yourself bawling in the mirror wondering what you did wrong.
You point out every mistake you made in the relationship and wonder if that was what pushed your significant other to go find someone else.
The worst part of it all though is, you’re the one broken and the person who didn’t care about your love, or your feelings, gets to walk away only, maybe, feeling a little “guilty”.
It’s not fair. It’s not fair that you are left broken trying to figure out how to pick yourself up. You didn’t make this mistake, you weren’t the one to betray the person you love. It hurts terribly…
Especially, because they get to move on as easily as their no conscience did when they decided to cheat on you.
You cry yourself to sleep and sometimes it’s so hard to breathe that you just wish it was over.
You feel kind of crazy. Like you are slowly and surely losing your mind. But isn’t that love?
Isn’t falling head over heels in love with a person you trust and believe will be faithful to you, a little crazy?
Yes, yes it is. So it’s okay that when that dream comes crumbling down, that you may be a little “crazy”.
You change in so many ways, but after all the pain, tears, anger, and hate.
You get past it.
You eventually move forward. Even after the person you loved more than anything killed the person you used to be.
You start to understand why being broken and betrayed actually teaches you something in life. It changes you. And makes you understand that love is real but fragile. That love is wanted but not needed to be happy.
And more importantly, it teaches you that love takes two people who love each other more than they can explain.
You also learn that love does change. And you have to make a choice every day to love the person you are with.
You realize that life isn’t a fairytale and neither are relationships but it does get better.
You understand that life goes on and you deserve someone better than a person who could throw away your unconditional love for a random person. For someone who doesn’t know them like you know them.
Being cheated on changes you. But it doesn’t make you bitter or angry at love. It just teaches you the importance of the right person.
Because the right person would never put you through that pain and that’s what you need to wait for. Being cheated on hurts, it breaks you down to nothing, but it helps you find yourself.
It makes you learn how to build yourself up, alone. Reminds you how to make yourself happy, and how to fall in love with who you are again.
It makes you stronger than you could ever be. And even though you wouldn’t want to go through that pain again, you have grown so much from it.
And you wouldn’t change the person you are today for anything. So keep pushing, and remember eventually everything gets better.