Keeping it Real

I Wasn’t Crazy You Were Just an Asshole

For the longest time, I thought all of it was me. I even questioned whether I may have some problems…

You were so good at making me question everything about myself that it was hard to snap out of your lies.

But now I have realized it was never me who was “crazy” it was you.

You were always the one who made me jealous to the point of making me freak out, which you deserved.

What girlfriend wouldn’t get upset when their boyfriend likes to hang out with other girls more than her?

You were the one who pushed my buttons just so you could call me crazy.

You were the one who wanted me to lose every ounce of self-esteem I ever had just so you could have full control over me.

You were just an asshole who thought controlling people was acceptable and that’s how you should “love” people.

You believed that you were allowed to do whatever you wanted without consequences.

And whenever I reminded you that was false, I always became “crazy” again.

It’s hard now to think back to our relationship because I get angry thinking about how I ever allowed myself to go through that crap.

You hurt me more than anyone has in my life and I really did think I was “crazy” and no one else would put up with me like you did.

I couldn’t have been more wrong….

But I guess that’s what happens when you love someone who couldn’t care less about treating you correctly.

But, how does it feel now?

Does it drive you crazy that I have now realized my worth and am so much happier without you?

Does it drive you crazy that you are now dealing with your own personal problems alone and I am living the life I have always wanted without you?

I hope it does.

Because sometimes karma really does its job.

And I’m glad I got some sort of payback for having to deal with the hell you dragged me through.

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